Desolation

My heart is drying up
Every day bits and pieces of it
Flake off and blow away
How long must I wait to be whole again?
I count every second of my life
And watch as the darkness and emptiness
Grow inside me
And I wait to be whole again
It's cold, so cold
I fear that I'll never be warm again
I wear many faces to disguise my pain
So no one will see my gaping wound
And still I wait to be whole again
Smiles are excruciating
Laughter tastes metallic, coppery like blood
Joy will soon become a distant memory
Like the missing part of me that I can still feel
Will I ever be whole again?


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As I Breathe You In

As I Breathe You In


i fell in love with You again
in the wee hours of the morning
as i lay there
caressing Your back
and afterward
when You fell asleep
listening to You breathe
unable to sleep
because that sharp, sweet ache
in my chest wouldn't let me
i'm so full inside
it's threatening to spill
to boil over
in the form of
tears that i won't shed
that i won't allow myself to shed
i don't want relief
i want to hold on
to this beautiful torture
this is more than love
this transcends mere emotion
i get to touch You
breathe You in
how amazing
i now know true fear
and it's solid inside me
because i know real love
ferocious and pure
i can't want something
someone this much
and not be sick
at the thought of having it all
and then it losing it
so the thoughts and worries
doubts have pressurized my fear
crystalline inside
rough and flawed
it sits deep within
as i lay awake
as i watch You sleep
as i feel Your warmth
as i breathe You in
as i drown in my need...

"As I Breathe You In"
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