Desolation

My heart is drying up
Every day bits and pieces of it
Flake off and blow away
How long must I wait to be whole again?
I count every second of my life
And watch as the darkness and emptiness
Grow inside me
And I wait to be whole again
It's cold, so cold
I fear that I'll never be warm again
I wear many faces to disguise my pain
So no one will see my gaping wound
And still I wait to be whole again
Smiles are excruciating
Laughter tastes metallic, coppery like blood
Joy will soon become a distant memory
Like the missing part of me that I can still feel
Will I ever be whole again?


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As I Breathe You In

As I Breathe You In


i fell in love with You again
in the wee hours of the morning
as i lay there
caressing Your back
and afterward
when You fell asleep
listening to You breathe
unable to sleep
because that sharp, sweet ache
in my chest wouldn't let me
i'm so full inside
it's threatening to spill
to boil over
in the form of
tears that i won't shed
that i won't allow myself to shed
i don't want relief
i want to hold on
to this beautiful torture
this is more than love
this transcends mere emotion
i get to touch You
breathe You in
how amazing
i now know true fear
and it's solid inside me
because i know real love
ferocious and pure
i can't want something
someone this much
and not be sick
at the thought of having it all
and then it losing it
so the thoughts and worries
doubts have pressurized my fear
crystalline inside
rough and flawed
it sits deep within
as i lay awake
as i watch You sleep
as i feel Your warmth
as i breathe You in
as i drown in my need...

"As I Breathe You In"
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The Mirror

i looked up into
a cracked mirror
so i reached out
to touch the surface
but when my hand
met the smooth, cool
glass surface
i realized that it
isn't the mirror
that's broken
...it's me...

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My Burning Heart

The passion that i've waited for
All my life, I finally found
But it's fear that i feel the strongest
Because i'm frightened by the madness
That it brings out in me
This hunger that i can barely control
It's like a film upon my skin
i can feel it every waking moment
This part of me long buried
Ablaze now that it's been set free
Like flames fed by oxygen
My need is exhausting me
Leaving me spent and trembling
i want to lose myself in You
Every bit as much as i want
To run from You
i'm sick from withdrawal without You around
A sickness i never thought i'd feel
Love is a bully beating the hell out of me
And i let it because i can't stop
Injecting myself with You
Soon there will be nothing left of who i was
And the silent screams inside my mind
Will be all i can hear and the thunderous
Beating of  my heart... my burning heart...

Sudor

Just a little more, don't stop
Out. of my mind..and i
Never want to stop
Every sensation bliss
Sensual agony pulling me
Into its whirlwind
Now a touch, then a kiss
Gripping You to me
Fire that burns us
On the inside bursts out & shoots upward
Raining down, consuming my soul
Master of my heart, body and mind
Reaching hidden depths
Just a moment more, please
Orgasms crashing like waves
Numbing my thoughts
Ecstatic babbling from my lips as i
Surrender to You again...



"Sudor"
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Acróstico

Far from lucid
Over and over thoughts
Rotate in my mind
Even in my dreams
Viewing nothingness
Endless and blinding
Running from myself
But returning to square one
Reaching for the intangible
Obvious but obscure
Kissing the promise of never
Epic fantasy created by delusion
Never to be fulfilled

Inside where hope dies
Gold plating that flakes off
I'm looking away now
Voided dreams flash by
Entering though unwanted
Understanding and accepting
Picture perfect ugliness


"Acróstico"

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Loveburn

pictures without color
words with no sound
flavorless food
when You're not here
shit, Baby it's like
life loses meaning
when i can't touch You
infinity becomes finite
i'm in a movie with no plot
in a book with pages torn out
i'm stuck in a
black and white reality
i think i left my senses
in Your pocket
along with my smile
my comfort and my
former view of the world
my fingers don't even feel
when i'm not touching You
Daddy this is crazy
i'm body without a soul
there's only down
because You took up
i laugh and i cry
alternately because
i can't even get my damn
moods right
i can only sit and rock
like Sofia in that cell
until You come back and
get me right

Loveburn
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